If I told you everything there is to know about me, you would probably surmise my behavior as child-like or childish. It’s who I am, it’s who I always want to be.
I am still learning how to love myself, to love others, to know myself better, to explore my capabilities and currently on a pursuit to know who I really am.
Stepping into the final years of my course of study, is a nightmare in itself. The “you’ll get a job, earn a lot; you can do whatever you want then” is nothing but a smokescreen and a far away truth from reality. To me, specifically, it’s more of a thought process of how I became old enough to go to a job, drive a car, or do any of those which the “adults” do.
Although, the horror of the corporate world keeps me awake at night; It might not be that bad as I’m describing it, but it’s definitely a stormy sea to set sail. This world that I’m talking to you about, is populated with people whose laughs are shallow, and whose smiles never reach their eyes. A world where the only objective is to get work done and take a cheque back home by the end of the night.
I’m not sure if I want to live in a world, with imposters, hypocrites and kiss-asses. But it seems like I have no other choice.
I see the Horizon of horror, but there is nothing I can do to change it.
I’m very unsure of what’s to come. The future holds what the gift of today never will. Do I look for a job? Or do I study further? A decision I have to make, a decision I have to take.
But in life, so far, for it’s been fair, regrets are something that I don’t seem to have, for I seem to possess the privilege of being loved, the privilege of being cared for, and the privilege to have made great friends along the way.
From late night conversations, to petty fights. From pointless arguments to loving one another, we all grew up, we all faced life.
I still haven’t got a clue of what’s to come, for I am ready, to be challenged, ready to be fought for.
I will continue to do what I love for what it’s worth, for what I believe, will always lead me, to my ultimate goal, to my ultimate destiny.
This article describes exactly what I feel and projects my perception of the adult world. If you like this story, you know what to do.